job change.

When I first got here I was working in the childrens hospital. But as of this week both Will and I had to leave. The fear of swine flu is growing here as Argentina gets ready to enter their flu season. The greatest reason for leaving was that we might have had some trouble getting home in July if customs knew we had been working in a hospital. I am going to be working in a reading foundation instead. I went this morning for my meeting and to set up my schedule and will start work Monday.

I'm going to try and tell you where my heart is in this because it was a change I didn't see coming and it has really thrown me for a loop. I completely understand why the change was an absolutely necessary change but it doesn't change the fact that I have spent the last couple days frustrated with God. I don't think I had ever been so certain I was suppose to be somewhere. I had prayed so many times all last semester that I could work in the hospital and then it was answered. And now it's changed. Do you know the feeling I'm talking about? I thought this was going to be an answer to a lot of things I have been asking the Lord for a very long time, probably since I started college. But also one of my greatest prayers coming into Argentina would be that my only expectation would be for Jesus to show up. Well, he's here. He knows me better than I do. He knows me better than you. I keep asking him why the change to a reading foundation had to happen. This is not where I would say my heart is...not even close. I guess in writing this I am seeing that I have a lot of pride. It should be so simple to go where he leads and believe it's best. I really do know it is and I fully believe this is the Lord yet again reminding me of his goodness, his sovereignty in my life and his deep desire to remind me I am His, not my own. I'm sure this little job change sounds silly and like I'm making a big deal of nothing if you hadn't heard me talk before I left about how sure I was of everything falling into place. I hope you understand where I am coming from and even if you don't, please pray that my heart would be made right in thinking and trusting. I have been reading Hosea and this is my prayer:
Let us acknowledge the Lord;
Let us press on to acknowledge him.
As surely as the sun rises,
he will appear;
he will come to us like winter rains,
like the spring rains that water the earth.
Hosea 6:3
I believe that this is God's. This is his way of showing up in my world in a very real way. Let me trust in that with everything.